It is with great sadness that I am announcing that my Peace Corps Service in Guinea has come to a close. I made the very hard decision to come home to the United States to seek diagnosis and treatment for recent medical issues.
In the weeks leading up to my departure, I was not eating or sleeping. I was in bed for 3 weeks with cyclical fever, dehydration, exhaustion, and body aches, followed by anxiety attacks, and finished off with painful neck and face swelling, so serious that I couldn’t open my mouth to talk, eat, or brush my teeth. One day, while lying in bed, I had a moment of clarity – who am I helping by always being sick in bed myself?
On April 29th, I began the 24-hour journey home from the Conakry airport, through Dakar, Brussels, and Chicago, to my final destination of Newark airport. After my flight to Philadelphia was cancelled due to bad weather, along with many other flights to the East coast, I was lucky to get one of the last 4 spots on the flight to Newark that same night, while hundreds of other travelers sought hotel rooms in Chicago. When I got off the plane in Newark, I was too exhausted to even cry or show emotion when reunited with my family. I threw up and then collapsed into a deep sleep in the backseat of the car, which to my relief didn’t have any goats or chickens in it.
On May 1st, the day after I arrived, I met with a Board-certified infectious disease specialist. She ordered a battery of tests, including a CT scan and blood work (6 vials worth!). Then, on May 9th, I received my diagnosis. Certain antibodies were elevated, so the doctor was able to determine that I have a strain of Spotted Fever Group (SFG) rickettsia, caused by a tick bite. The treatment is a double dose of doxycycline for a week. After 3 days of treatment, I’m already starting to feel like myself again.
The goodbyes were very hard. I promised to stay in touch with my Guinean friends, and I set Ismael up with my site mate Sara to continue English lessons. I will continue to support him with whatever he needs in his quest to study abroad. I will miss my coworkers immensely – Sara, Yejide, and especially Christine. Christine and I called each other once, twice, sometimes three times a day and were always on the same page, able to complete each others’ thoughts (even in French/Franglais). We were an unlikely pairing that became inseparable with time. All goodbyes were done over the phone, as I was in the Peace Corps Guinea headquarters in Conakry, so I didn’t even get to say goodbye in-person.
I want to share the aspiration statement that I sent in to Peace Corps in February 2013, in preparation for departure to Guinea. I am proud to say that I have accomplished what I set out to do in the time that I was there, even though my body fought me every step of the way:
ASPIRATION STATEMENT
Kelly Barb
Guinea
What are three professional attributes that you plan to use during your Peace Corps service?
Three professional attributes that I plan to use during my Peace Corps service are interpersonal skills, problem solving skills, and professionalism. I will essentially be in a “fish bowl” during my Peace Corps service and in a position of leadership, representing the United States of America. Interpersonal skills will be crucial to my success as I will need to communicate with the community to build trust, with my students to stimulate learning, and with local partners to gain resources. Problem solving skills will come into play in several aspects of my life as a Peace Corps Volunteer. From daily tasks such as cooking or transportation to a lack of resources in the classroom to helping a student who is struggling to understand a concept, I will constantly be working towards solutions. Professionalism will be important for gaining the trust and respect of the community, especially with my age and gender. It will give me credibility as a teacher and is how I would like to represent the Peace Corps as an employee.
What are two strategies you will utilize for working effectively with host country partners to meet expressed needs?
The first strategy I will utilize for working effectively with host country partners to meet expressed needs is having patience. There will be times when I am asking for assistance, resources, clarification, and so forth and I will need to understand that I am working in an entirely different situation than what I am used to. At home here in the States, if I needed to find the answer to something or needed clarification, I could Google it on my Smartphone or send a quick text message and have the instant gratification of knowing and moving forward. In Guinea, if I need the help of the community, local government, or an NGO, for example, the resources and time frame may vary and I will have to adapt. The second strategy I will utilize is always working towards community-driven development. It is easy to lose sight of what the community needs when personal bias comes into play. But without community buy-in, a project will not be sustainable. I want to be aware of this at all times, making sure that I am completing the task that I am assigned to do to the best of my ability as well as aiding the community in their expressed needs.
How will you adapt to a new culture?
To adapt to a new culture, I will learn first by extensive research prior to traveling but also by observation. I will observe how the women conduct themselves especially, so that I can integrate into the community as an accepted member. I want to adopt as many aspects of the Guinean lifestyle as I can, but I would also like to share my cultural background with the community in an appropriate way, meaning that it would not seem forced, pretentious, or indoctrinating. I will ask questions and really use the time with my host family to learn about the culture before I start my official assignment. I will work to break any stereotypes of the American culture by remaining professional, compassionate, and hardworking.
What do you hope to accomplish during Pre-Service Training?
During pre-service training, I hope to accomplish several things. First, I want to improve my skills in French speaking, reading, writing, and listening. This will be crucial to my success as a teacher and community member. Also, I want to learn how to teach effectively. I am an engineer, so my background is technical with an emphasis on design work and calculation. I have a lot of knowledge but I was never formally trained as to how to convey it in a classroom setting, especially to younger adults. I am excited to gain these skills in my Peace Corps training, as I feel it will make me more well-rounded and marketable in future job hunting. I would like to learn about current resources that are available to me, as well as what has historically been successful in programs like this – essentially, what worked and what didn’t work? Lastly, I would like to learn more about the culture so that I can properly integrate myself, be culturally sensitive, be aware of my surroundings, and ultimately thrive.
How do you think you will benefit from Peace Corps Service?
I believe that my Peace Corps service will make me a more marketable candidate for employers in the future. I will gain a level of proficiency in French, will gain skills as an educator, and will prove that I can work and thrive in another culture, climate, and set of conditions. I hope to show all of the people that told me I was crazy for doing this that this is truly a life-changing, incredibly fulfilling experience. I hope to have a plethora of amazing stories to tell my grandchildren someday.
Terminating my service was the hardest decision I’ve ever made, but it is definitely for the best. Unfortunately, I will not be returning to Guinea. I plan to spend several weeks recovering, working on my physical and emotional strength. I have had the most amazing outpouring of love and support, especially from my family, best friends, and boyfriend (who has visited me every day since I’ve been home). Thank you to everyone that sent texts and Facebook messages, called, visited, and sent flowers. While I miss Guinea immensely, it’s good to be home. The transition has been interesting, speaking English all of the time with access to food other than rice and 2-ply toilet paper, but it gets more comfortable and “normal” every day. I do not know what’s next for me, whether it’s school, an engineering career, or more overseas work, but I’m not worried about it at this moment. I know that I will now be able to help others and contribute to society while taking care of myself as well. Thank you for your support and for being a part of this adventure, and keep an eye out for what I’m up to next!